Chrissy: Out in the real world
Remember this post?
Well here are some pictures (that I stole off of facebook) of the shoes out in the real world.
I was pleased to find that the recipient liked them so much!
posted by Chrisanne Serafin at
2:08 PM
3 Comments:
They are magnifique!
Sooo cool. :)
Dear Chrisanne.
Two things. (Brace yourself... the second one is kinda lengthy...)
One, the shoes are awesome. Am I surprised? No. I still wear mine a ton and I love them. And they're a great convo starter. haha! I get compliments on them too. you = awesome, awesome, awesome. :)
Two... my soul hurts. haha! K but really... GAAA!!! I don't think I've ever been so torn in my entire life. Which is understandable, I mean, I'm trying to make a decision that will effect the rest of my life. To major in piano, or to major in photography? Or something else? That is the question. Seriously... I used to want to major in piano. Then over time I became STRONGLY against it. Then I went and had SUCH an amazing night with my Solo Recital last night and I just got back from my piano lesson today and... I'm not so against it anymore... I don't know. I never want to lose piano. EVER. EVER EVER EVER. I love it too much! but... do I love it enough to give my life to it for the next 4 years? I really don't know. Before, when I was against it, I would look down that road and see darkness... maybe that's a bit cliche, but that's honest. I saw countless nights in a dark practice room and countless tears trying to reach perfection in piece after piece after piece. When I reach perfection, the process starts all over again. But now I see determination. I still see those nights in the practice room, I still know there will be tears, but I see myself working so hard, and then reaping the benefits. I don't want to let my piano teacher down. I know she will be happy with whatever I do, but part of me knows that she'd be so excited if I majored in piano performance. I'm not confident enough to make this decision. I want to make it in when I audition, but then I don't at the same time. I want to be good enough to make it in and I want to please my piano teacher because I seriously love her so much and I want her to be SO proud of me. She's already proud of me, but this would add to that. But I don't want to make it in because part of me is really unsure that this is the right path for me. Like... intensely. But I don't know which part of me is more powerful: the part that says yes to piano or the part that says no! I don't want to lose piano, I don't want my skill level to disappear, and I don't want to leave my teacher behind. But I also think photography is a new road for me... something that I could be really good at. It excites me, and I see myself becoming really good and loving it. Loving my job as a photographer, loving life. CHRISANNE!!! I've never been in this position before!!!! I hate this!!
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